I’m 26 And I Feel Stuck,
And That’s Okay
A story of a 26 year-old girl, facing adulting life challenges and a pandemic in a third world country.
People in the world have their goals, hopes and dreams no matter what they are. Normally, their desires are changing while they are growing along and it’s because people in different ages have different requirements and thoughts. Once you mature, you start to think about things that you don’t normally think about and even though life is getting harder as you grow old, most people would try their best to achieve those goals.
At the age of 26, I’m feeling stuck.
I don’t know what I want from my life, I don’t know what my goals are. Or maybe, I know what I want, but I’m scared to step forward. I’m scared of failure and of what other people might think. Why self!? What are you waiting for? It’s hard to have a weak personality or a weak mindset.
Ever since I was a child, I wanted to be a millionaire and I think it is what most people wanted to be. Money is powerful. You can buy lots of things with them such as cars, houses, services and you can travel around the world without worrying about tomorrow. Nevertheless, money can satisfy people’s desires. If you have money, you can do whatever you want so it can gain you happiness. That was what I thought when I was young.
When I became older, I realized those thoughts were immature and childish. I didn’t know anything else besides money and material things as a sign of success, probably it’s because I was born in a poor family.
After a long journey, I got accepted into a college, met a lot of people and widened my horizon. During those years, I realized that time, love, relationship or knowledge doesn’t have a price tag. I learned that knowledge guarantees you a great job with a higher income therefore, I can spend my income and buy whatever I want. So, I changed my mind to be a successful and a highly-educated person, rather than a millionaire. In that way, I will get respected by my wits and how far I’ve achieved, coming from nothing.
My new 5-10 years goal is that I want to figure out where my heart sings because for me when you love whatever you do, no matter how hard it is, success and recognition comes along. No matter how high the waves are, you will still see how clear your dreams are. Most importantly, putting God in the center of my life because He is the foundation of my hope to myself and to life. One of the most successful people once stated that “Be successful where it makes you happy, money will not be your happiness”.
This is real life, you are all by yourself. I do not know which is right or wrong, if I forgot something, will I ever stop, wait, or change direction. Those are the thoughts that regularly visits me and if I don’t overcome those thoughts, I know that I will be sucked into an oblivion of sadness and depression. Right now, the only thing I am sure of is that I prefer to be alone, rather than including toxic people in my life and choosing the right people I want to be associated with. The secret to being successful is choosing which path you want to take and sticking with it, choosing the environment and the people you want to belong to must have the same mindset and principles you want to uphold. This is an essential in pursuing your dream.
“Don’t lose hope, your time will come. The last flower to bloom is going to be the prettiest amongst the bunch.”
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